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It is osteoporosis.  I am not going to bore you with my story. In short, I cried for two days.

I am reading Eckhart Tolle’s book, The New Earth.  Tolle’s words made me aware of the egotistical nature of my self pity. In my mind, osteoporosis is not what I want.  This situation is not what should be.  It’s not fair.  Its not supposed to happen.  It is wrong.

Then I thought, What if it’s right?  What if it’s supposed to happen? What if this is what should be?  What if this is fair?

My ego is telling me–it is not fair, wrong, not right!  However it is–it is happening. What if I am supposed to be the person who masters living with osteoporosis?  Maybe I am supposed to reverse my condition with hard work.  Maybe I am supposed to live with it and learn from it.  I have choices in how I want to view this, how I want to live this.

Self pity was not getting me far, so I choose a different approach.  I choose to be the possibility of strength and resilience.
Actions so far:
•Yoga: Since Tuesday I practiced yoga every day for 30 minutes. (That’s 4 days in a row!)  It is a start.  Yoga will help my balance to help prevent falls.
•Weight training.  I checked out the local city gym.  Only $75 for 6 months!  It is noisy and unattractive–but it is a place to start if I can’t afford anything fancier.
•I got into a medical research study on osteoporosis at the Hospital for Joint Diseases.  I will get free MRI’s that provide amazingly detailed images of my bones.   My appointment is on July 5th so stay tuned!
•I started this blog.  I plan to use it to keep my focus and to share whatever learning this process brings me.  Thank you for reading and for your support!